My Sincerest Apologies

I’ve been a pretty bad blogger, I know. I haven’t posted since my JDRF interview. And, full disclosure…I was pretty disheartened by it. The JDRF is a great organization that does a huge amount of work for Type 1 diabetics every day. I know I don’t need to tell you that. I am just trying to acknowledge it in an attempt to not sound bitter when I discuss my interview. I was just very passionate about starting Diabuddies, and when I kept receiving e-mails and an interview offer from the JDRF I got my hopes up that I would be able to work there when I graduated. They we excited about my idea. They even wanted to do it, with me running the entire thing. Its just that they offered me a 40 hr/week unpaid internship to do it. And I would have had to pay the state fees and taxes on the organization out of my own pocket. I completely understand that JDRF like most non-profits doesn’t really have the budget to just create a position and program for some just graduated hopeful. However, I have to pay for insulin, not to mention rent and there is just no way that I would ever be able to take that offer. So I got kind of depressed, because I felt like all the time and effort and excitement that I had went to waste. I feel this way because I think that newly diagnosed diabetics would have really benefited from my idea, and I know that I will not have the time or financial means to do it until I have an actual job. It also just added a lot of stress for me, because now I have been applying for jobs like crazy and honestly have no idea what I am going to do when I graduate in 3 weeks.

That in addition to finishing my honors thesis, (which I am so grateful to those of you who helped me with that) doing finals, and raising money for the JDRF walk left me completely exhausted. Every time I opened my blog I would get anxiety that I could be doing some other school work.

However, with that aside, I do want to say that my dad, Nick and I raised $585 for the JDRF and completed the 5k Walk to Cure Diabetes last Saturday! So many people reached out to support me in this, and I am so grateful. It is truly inspiring to me, because my original goal was to raise $200, and then when people were so interested I raised the goal to $300. I kept raising it at small increments as people donated, but I never imagined that I would approach $600! This to me was a true testament of how supportive people have been in my recent endeavors. I hope that those who donated to me who do not know about Type 1 diabetes took the time to read about it. It was also cool because I was the newest diabetic there, having been diagnosed in September.

 

Fitness wise, I have been keeping up with that. I’ve been at the gym or running from home at least 4 or 5 times a week. How have your fitness goals been going?I have been experiencing weird trends with my BG, which I don’t know whether to attribute to stress or not. When I started exercising, my insulin needs decreased and I had to turn down my basal permanently because I was setting a temp basal almost every night just to wake up between 90 and 100. But now, my exercise habits have remained the same, yet I have been waking up in the 130s-150s. I turned my basal back up to what it used to be, but I don’t really understand the change. I would prefer to use as little insulin as possible so I am sort of disappoint about it…

I finally completed my Honors Thesis, and I turned in the final draft last night. A HUGE thank you to anyone who participated. I will be searching for publishers, and hopefully be able to send out the paper in a few months. Though it is academic writing, I think anyone who wears a pump would enjoy reading it!

Endo Nurse

At my endocrinologist appointment yesterday, they wanted to check if my meter was working correctly since I will get three totally different results when I run high sometimes. (I have a really cheap meter because I have to pay out of pocket for test strips.)

So a nurse comes in with the office meter and is priming it. I just thought it would be stupid for her to check it for me…I mean come on, I do that myself 10 times a day. Plus she was taking sort of a long time and individually alcohol swabbing all of my fingers, even though we’d only use one. So I offered to do it. And she gladly handed it to me. As I pressed the lancet to my finger she squeezed her eyes shut and turned away in disgust. And I said, “It bothers you?” She responded, “I can do it if I have to, but I don’t like to look at the blood.” Then afterward she insisted that I wash my hands AND use an alcohol swab.

I was SHOCKED.

1)WHY do you work as a nurse at an endocrinologist’s office if you can’t check people’s sugar?????

2) Why do you work as a nurse if a tiny drop of blood freaks you out so much?

3) WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM?

As a diabetic I check my sugar in public multiple times per week (in class, at restaurants, at the gym, when I feel low in the middle of a supermarket etc.) Yea, in the beginning I was self-conscious that I was bothering people. I used to be really grossed out by blood too. I get that it bothers some people, but I also don’t feel like I should have to feel shame about my disease. Additionally, if I feel like my sugar is low, I don’t care what people think, I am not going to take the time to go to a bathroom when I can just check where I am standing. 99.9% of the time people have no reaction. On the rare occasion that they do, I ap0logize and very obviously use my hand sanitizer in front of them afterward.

BUT A NURSE, AT AN ENDOCRINOLOGIST’S OFFICE?!?!?! COME ON!

Thoughts?

A1C!

Hey guys! I hope you had a good weekend! I did! (Except my pump ran out of insulin while I was out…you know how that goes.)

Today I had my endocrinologist appointment and I got back my A1C. (The measure of average blood glucose for the past 3 months.) It was a 6.0 which roughly translates to 120 mg/dl average blood sugar…which is a normal reading for a non-diabetic! I was stoked as my last A1c was 6.6 at about 2 1/2 months after diagnosis and before that it was 12 and I was in the hospital. Getting a good A1C feels to me like when you look at a scale and you lost 10 lbs. Beyond that, my triglycerides and cholesterol were really low and the doctor asked me if I work out a lot because my numbers indicated that I did. As diabetics, we have the opportunity to really monitor our systems so much more closely than the average person. It is amazing to me to see how my lifestyle pays off on a regular basis! (There’s a plus side to diabetes!)

I also found a new work out buddy. (Hey Lauren!) And she really holds me accountable as I got up at the butt-crack of dawn this morning to meet her at the “Y.”

My doctor pretty much told me that doing a juice fast is a ridiculously stupid idea. I think I could get a way with substituting one meal a day with it, but I guess I have to give up on that one.

This week, I challenge you to “plank” every day and hold it for as long as you can! This is a great exercise for your abs. Time yourself, and I bet that by the end of the week you will have extended your time by so much! Let me know how you do with it! I will post my times here as well! 🙂

Now I am going to go bury my head in thesis writing…Have a great Monday! 🙂